R.A.D.I.C.A.L. Thoughts
"Your heart's desire is your destiny." Joel Green - The Zen of Oz
What is your heart's desire? To have your ex-husband back? To have a strong, bright marriage? To have a solid, sure primary family? Those were my heart's desires. I often asked God for those things. I tried to do everything I could to make those things reality. And I was almost destroyed when my marriage came apart. When my divorce really actually happened, I brought up to God (not very nicely) that he promised that if I trusted him and did the right things he would give me the desires of my heart. I really struggled with that. But after lots of sobbing and screaming, I started looking again at that phrase, "the desires of your heart." I think God expects the desires of my heart to go beyond anything superficial at all. Even anything good. Anything human and transient and subject to the wild fluctuations that happen in life. God, I think, wants us to get to the point that we can still be joyful because the desire of our heart is so deep and true that it can be accomplished no matter what external storms we are faced with. Our heart's desire will be intact if we get a terrible disease. Our heart's desire will still be fulfilled if we lose all of our possessions. Our heart's desire will be deep enough to survive any onslaught life throws at us. That concept was something I had to grow into, but it has brought an unbelievable peace and joy to my life that I would never have found had I not gone through this cosmic midlife divorce struggle. Redefining your true heart's desire is not giving up what you really want. It's not making excuses so that your theology is not destroyed. Instead, it's searching deep within yourself to find that core, solid shining desire that absolutely cannot be destroyed by anything at all. Think about your real heart's desire today. It truly is your destiny and God will absolutely give it to you.
"Trust in the Lord and do good. Dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Psalm 37:3-4 (NIV)
